The Last Cross-Out

Turning older as one year withers away
Anna darling, my forever best-called sister
seeped into her silky night gown just as I did
and pulled the covers to her chest,
ready to spread a good bedtime story over Window Messanger
to feed my hungry soul.
Our deepest secret always hidden in our hearts
The explicit details were even spilled out
Maybe this trust developed due to the fact that
we now live in different ends of the earth.
This safe haven of ours was rummaging through high school years,
ex-boyfriends, us but especially LOVE.
How complicated but also blissful our parts are.
Who will you choose, god please help her? Are you sure?
Are you truly happy? What do your parents thing?
Who are you happy with most, THINK, make an impulse decision tonight?
A good debate, but it never
ends with a point we can consider.
Finally she changed and asked to play a game
THE 20 QUESTIONS - such a girl thing, you may say
It started out fun but later required crucial thinking
as it relates to our debate
She asked: LOVE or MONEY?
I asked her: PARENTS or LOVE?
We sat for minutes, thinking...
She wanted to prove her point as much as I did
Finally I decided it had to be LOVE
Since we're both fortunate to meet our soulmates
Sweet, ever-lasting and healthy where distance means nothing.
Finally she chose PARENTS. The last to cross out from the list.
Until they approve THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE
can you then walk hand in hand with him...
My point exactly...
Wish me luck

Pretty little busy bees

Bees are black and yellow. Without them polinating, our gardens will not look pretty.
Like them busy things.
They irritate the hell out of you.
Flying past your eyes, legs and hands.
You run, jump and scream thinking they'll stick their stings
up your cherry ass
But they are, in fact, by God's creation, harmless
Just...don't move.
Then if you don't, they'll fly into your nose
and make honey out of it
You feel nothing except to CRUSH them in rage!
(even if they don't sting)

But here's a few facts (whether it's true or not)
If you dream of them flying around you
together in harmony (or somewhat)
You are bound to work productively and hard
and find good harvest
If you're watching them make honey, you'll experience
a deep bonding relationship with your lover
If it stings you, await for great changes
(remember they bring pleasant and profitable engagements)

When you're currently working on a project with a team, who have goals:
If your dream experience is positive (I guess, considering they don't sting)
you can/will be cooperative, creative, hard-working
and have great organizational skills
But if it is negative (where they sting!)
you will be bugged by a follower, busy body or a stinger!

If you don't believe me (I'm not saying that it is certain)
google it! or search in globaloneness

Fly you free

Everyday my world is a bliss. The peace and comfort, with dearest friends. The smooth swaying my feet slides, with the day's progression. Everyday the same contentment. Everyday a monotonous sensation. Yet tonight seems barren, despite the same silent night. Am I losing something? this one thing that matters most. A jigsaw puzzle piece. It seems to have walked far away, giving itself a new life. I fear to ask, As its wings are still on my shoulder. This imagination is a demon. But wrong I can be. This thing I refuse to have it freed. I cannot lose it again. But if it refuses to stay with me. eventually I will let it go. Just give me time to free it, so I don't stumble as I walk. Show me a sign if it doesn't need me anymore. I'll let it go, for the sake of love....

Psalm 13:3-6

Look on me and answer O Lord my God
Give light to my eyes or I will sleep in death
My enemy will say,
"I have overcome him",
my foes will rejoice when I fall
But I trust in your unfailing love
my heart rejoices in your salvation
I will sing to the Lord
for he has been good to me

Around & About now here we are

Bored as the sun, beaming left, right and all around
My curiousity finally came to a stop
snooping into a folder of emails I've saved since 2006
What a joy I've found
bewildered my expression became
comparing where I am to where I was
What a laugh I've let out
It sent echos in my empty room
Once upon a time he & I were searching for love
for real love, for another try at it
after our heart shards were messing our own garden
So many dates were made
every week new ones come along
Yet where are we now?
Still single
Still searching for the perfect nest to rest
But with patience, letting God do the work
As now we've got our legs steady on the ground
we see the big picture
& we have focal points

TO YOU who forever will remain significant to me: I stand before you without making any impulse decisions as you've thought I would. I am well.
TO THE ONE who never fails to save me: remember what we used to speak about finding the last one? I'm still here, waiting for HIM to show me the way, waiting for the signs to sprout into a full bloomed tree.

Shades of my Heart

The sky is constantly blue all year round.
Eventhough it is sometimes grey, blue is the color you see on my most occassion. it never seems to be a different shade.
GOd's creation is simple and predictable
But if that's the case
why is the shadings of my heart so different every single hour, minute and seconds.
sometimes bloody red, pink, blue, black
& different shades in between....

Life's meaning

What is life? What does it even mean?
In fact why do we exist ?
I wonder I wonder
I wonder
What has been happening for the past one year seems as though it's in !CRISIS~~
I'm only 25 and people constantly say 'you're too young'
DUH! but what have I been doing?
Not enjoying but building a career, desperately reaching dreams, stressing over money and playing the role of a dutiful eldest daughter.
I've got two jobs that won't let me sleep or finish my assignments
And I've got studies demanding for attention to teach & build projects
(can I help it if i'm good? LOL ;P)
Everyday's the same routine.
College from 8-5pm, work from 6-11pm, home, sleep
the next day...do I have to repeat myself ?!
No one's in the house too. hmmm...!
Meanwhile i adopt a new religion and mingle with work addicts
'Get the job done and grab the money'
'More long hours means more pay'
Nevermind the cut on my wrist constantly bleeding
Forget the plaster, Just get your bank account filled
Is this what life is about?
Funnily it's a bliss. absolute comedic it makes me laugh (without sarcasm)
Meanwhile at home, settling on the couch with my best friends (TV & laptop)
and a cup of cold milk puts me at ease
and keep me ready for the future the next day with a smile :D

Hand In Hand

In times of troubles and needs
There is only one person you can always turn to
But it's not someone you can choose by random
It's the same one person you can only think of
since the day both of you met
despite the distance, the irregular contacts and disappearing days
Only they can calm, secure and nurture you...
Only they can strengthen you effectively...
Only they can make your day brighter...
Only they can bring a smile to your face again.
Some people are fortunate to find him/her
Most are not
I know I found mine 10 years ago